Thankful

So I woke up this morning with a little bit of a lot of stuff on my mind.  My house is under contract and we're at the mile 24 and it took me a long time to get to this place...longer than it should have, but I was arrested by fear.  I couldn't move, couldn't make a decision.

This morning I find myself in a different place than I was just three months ago, even two.  I'm no longer afraid of life.  Come what may.  I find myself thankful for all of the crazy decisions and the lack of planning and the random thoughts and the mess.  Only because I stepped out on faith, has this happened.  I could be living my same old life, doing the same old things...angry and resentful...but secure and safe, but instead I am here at a crossroads.  I'm crossing over into the life that I've dreamt of since I was a wee little tot, a life where I get to serve and give and create and build.

Some people would have you think that it's near impossible to get to this place, but I say they lie.